whenever i'm alone with you i keep to myself it's not because i'm bored with you it must be my health i feel like i'm a little kid afraid to go to school i lock myself inside my room and act like a fool i don't know why and i don't miss it i wanna cry and no one's listening i don't know why the phone keeps ringing but i'm not home or maybe i am the world outside is not the same i don't give a damn i like around in bed all day the ceiling's all i see you try to take me out the door but i won't leave -chorus- on my own i'm afraid all my feelings seem the same feel the same 

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EXPLANATION

he stumbles in at night and the clock says 3 a.m. the love of his life just wonders where on earth he's been he can't explain himself, a poor excuse is all he's got a mess of contradictions have his stomach tied in knots she gets tired of waiting up all night if he truly cared for her he'd stay at home tonight he says he's out with friends, then again he could be anywhere she starts to have a nervous breakdown when he isn't there she tried to call him on the phone and no one's there no explanation can be given wide awake at night again. what is it gonna take he tries to speak, it makes her think his story is a fake she can't take these fables anymore what she wants to know is what the phone numbers are for the love of his life just wonders where on earth he's been he can't explain himself, a poor excuse is all he's got 

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OUTRIGHT LIES

i try my best to reach perfection and all i get is more rejection i wanna know what you're about it's nice to know someone's out there asking but what's it worth when it's all you're telling? i think it's you i've finally figured out those outright lies you've said are knocking me down what's left to do when your life's turned upside down? i've gotten flak from all who know me if you speak truth then you need to show me you can't expect me to just nod my head and smile cuz ignorance is not my style as my false pride gets in the way i start believing all you say i cross my fingers all the while i'm running in a winless race i'm out of time and out of place i play the sucker all the time i simply can't make up my mind whoever i choose to believe who says they won't stand up and leave and who'll be waiting next in line won't you give me another sign? -chorus- turn it upside down (x4) 

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HAD MY CHANCE 

i have my chance what in the hell am i waiting for i offer my apology for the millionth time i try in vain to try to get you to just open up you never have an answer and i never question why i stare outside your window waiting for it to begin as you turn i'll keep my head low why can't you let me in? i'm in your head too bad, i know that's not what i said you twist my words 'til they seem good enough for you you say i hurt your feelings and one thing is a fact you think i'm disgusting, but i know you want me back -chorus- i'm out of your life but my picture remains i never found the right things to say tell me who on earth are you fooling today i've had all i can take i'm leaving anyway somebody stop me i had my chance why in the hell did i wait so long i offered my apology it's shoved back in my face i tried in vain to tell you why did i wait so fucking long i spent all this time wondering what i had done wrong -chorus- 

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SMART ENOUGH TO RUN

out making fun of me, i don't like it i'm not some "wind-me-up" you can play you've go thte best of me, i can't fight it there's nothing left that i can say this run around you're giving me it makes me long for better days don't ever take me for a fool i'm smart enough to run away you're standing over me, i don't mind it you have this way of stopping time whenever things turn sour, i'll be on my way i only wanna take what's mine i say this run around you're giving me there's got to be a better way -chorus- you've go the best of me i'm not so blind that i can't see don't ever take me for a fool last thing i wants to be your tool -chorus- this run around you're giving me, it's not the same you don't mean nothing, but i can't forget your name don't ever take me for a fool i won't forget your golden rule i'm smart enough to run away 

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HOLDING BACK

i can't believe the things i've said like all the times i'd hope that you were dead what's going on inside my head? to think of you is only making me red you shut me out and i can't believe it was i so blind that i couldn't see it you offered love and i didn't need it i'm tired of holding back it's getting old, your bigotry i'm getting fed up with the things you're telling me your world's so dark that you can't see that all your anger is your only energy -chorus- 

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MY LITTLE WORLD

i can't imagine any human being slapping me i got so high that i didn't let you get to me ignored my problems with the help of my little boy i'm losing all that's close and i don't even wonder why and i care if i'm alone i'm not myself unless i'm stoned i'm in my little world; no one can shut me out don't try to talk to me, i'm high and there's no doubt my mind has been through hell and back and i don't care i'm in my little world, it's too bad you're not there i start to freak on how the way things used to be you say you're happy but there's something you're not telling me i'm always fucked up and that really seems to bother you i don't ever wanna change there's nothing you can say or do and i don't care if i'm alone i'm not myself unless i'm stoned -chorus- do it again! 

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BLINK

i'm sick of feeling like the faceless one but that's all changed because i've found someone if i had blinked i probably never would have met her and now i wouldn't change a thing she seems to sparkle with her every move my mind goes crazy when she's in the room i try not tho think of how things were when you weren't here my friends all say i've lost my head and it's not fair nothing matters when i call and you're not there i've fallen totally in love and i don't care i used to think that i could hold my own i'd rather die than have to live alone 

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I'VE WON

i recall the time that changed my whole fucking life call it fate, call it what you want, but it happened to me some people go through life searching for this thing caled love call it fate, call it what you want, but it happened to me and i can't believe the way she makes me feel inside when i'm around her, i just can't help but smile she may be unsuspecting of this but i'll look at her and say all of things i feel i'm gonna tell her how i fell inside i've won (x3) she makes me laugh, she makes me cry my love for her will never die she makes me think, she makes me believe in myself now i can see my life is rectified and i can't believe how she changed my life my outlook on life is leaning toward the positive she means everything to me and i'll do anything to keep from losing her deep in my heart i can't lose her and i don't feel like such a loser now i've won (x3) 

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SOMETHING I DON'T KNOW

i used to think that i could take on the whole world i didn't need my friends for what i could do on my own and then you came along and showed me i was wrong my world turned upside down ever since we were alone you're always there to tell me that i'm lazy first to admit that i'm fucking crazy tell me something i don't know i get the feeling that you don't think so tell me something i don't know you know i start believing all the stupid words you say i turn to liquor to make all my problems go away you try to tell me that i'm making a mistake i never listen to you, i just hope you stay away i love it when you say i'm good for nothing you always think that i'm up to something -chorus- 

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FAMILY RESEMBLANCE

i can't stand to watch myself or anybody else sometimes confidence is lacking, i turn to run away can't take the pressure of it all i'm not frightened about who i'm gonna meet i'm just afraid that i might fall i keep repeating the same words you say i ignore my problems cuz they get in the way nothing matters when all's said and done family resemblance is something we have in common you used to tell me never keep your feelings down you can't let anger in the way i've spent a lifetime looking for a little break things don't change, they just stay the same -chorus- sometimes sometimes i just can't help myself -chorus- 

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I HATE MYSELF

walking down a crowded street i stop to get something to eat and i hope i see no one i know out of the blue i see my ex i think she's looking for some sex but heh here i don't want to go some people ask me why i feel this way i look at them and tell them just go away i hate myself and everyone else i just wanna be alone no one to call me on the phone then i know i can be by myself just my luck i get a call i can't get any sleep at all so i tell 'em all to go to hell -chorus- (shreddin' solo, man) -chorus- 
 

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