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could be afraid of what they'd say could be afraid of the things they say this morning i had the bad taste i couldn't think straight i crawled back inside i've taken this as a warning i'm gona rid myself of everything outside of my ways could be afraid of what they'd say so from now on i know nothing push it back let it fade simple words have always meant nothing i can taste the waste of energy i always thought ot was safe to be aquainted casually they're dropping non-stop casually i make my way directed to another place to stay until i'm settled but i'm not afraid could be afraid of what they'd say out of strength watch me go afraid it's over on i move a simple step on my way to avoid responsibility day breaks the same for the expressionless open the gates at a stand still routine media dream, no reality pressure eager to be recognized fighting for promotion no time for rest so next door no contact impersonal glance afraid to go out learn to isolate companionship through classifieds a desparate attempt to put a name on the face no time for companionship no ego knows you want ego knows you'll take it inconvenience a nightmare never ending race four wheels, pavement ego, poor health hands of greed grab whatever they can take eager to materialize fighting for a piece no time for rest no rise when it happens friend no, no don't let them break you rise no matter what they say no, no don't let them break you walking by myself i took a look around i think i misunderstood the magic of this town it's time to recognize that i should let it go it doesn't look it doesn't feel like it i keep waiting for something don't know how long i'll last sometimes i think it could be my turn to detach can't find the strength to decide where is should go i don't think like i did i don't feel like i should i saw familiar faces far from those i knew so well couldn't think of much to say didn't know how i felt so i put them behind me and i let them go they didn't look like hey did they didn't feel like they should do you remember when we met i was so intrigued you were so intrigued we spent our time telling our sides of our excitement of insecurities moving far away and from that moment on we were inseperable a vivid image of ecstasy it's been a long time and things i see well they remind me well they remind me they take me to that age moving far away moving far away in time but everyday that goes by your further from my mind try to rememebr lies i know i trasure things too much instead of pushing them aside still i tell lies try to turn around and face it it was time when i walked away we said good-bye i was confused i traded everything for another life and thought i left i swore that i would never go you said you would save a piece until i came back home i've got a new design and i want to try it on for size i was hoping you would let me cause when i think that everything is on the brink i know that you are there to catch me spilling time looking for salvation in my mind holding on holding out for life i swore i would never go my mother said things are fine and turned the other way my troubles she said go way back far before your day but things are all right she said it's alright you could see it on her face her days of praise had gone astray and moved on to another place my father threw up his arms in a cold aggressive rage i've been fighting my conscience years now every single day we live alone now but no one is to blame his days away go unexplained things will never be the same what's there to pray about? letting go is not so simple what's there to pray about? i should have picked another hero you built a garden to watch it rot you could get blood from stone if you want but for you to be infectious maybe not the needle got me and i'll bleed on you either way it doesn't matter which way you face somehow i'm always gonna be in your way cut from me spend on defense that's genocide i'll find myself a hammer now and construct a box the size of myself and when the time is right they will bring me down and lay me there on the ground "a disease maintained by...criminal neglect so enormous that it amounts in genocide." to be the one to swallow my pride i'll try but make no promises and before i go off to collect myself please don't give up while there's time to be the one to swallow my pride i'll try but make no promises i'll wash myself of that feeling while i'm still wet and before i go off to collect myself please don't give up while there's time my goal is to gain the courage and smile for awhile if i'm the first to open my arms and try well i've done mine i have no regrest i wasn't forced into this so it's all right to be the one to laugh at my pride i'll try and make no promises i'll wash myself of that feeling while i'm still wet i have no regrest i wasn't forced into this i'm trying to make the best of my nonsense before i go off to collect myself please don't give up what you are i'm not your apprentice don't lead the way i could care less of your identity my first impression did not impress your insecurities came across as confidence it seems so convenient to let others think for you when your tired and your down can you find somewhere to be that you call your own? try and learn about yourself then we can have revolution my first impression did not impress your insecurities come across as confidence could it be a front concealment for acceptance so far you've shown me little to believe so far have you seen what you expected to see i'd do anything to look that way when i stop and think again i want to change my face and change my skin no more invisible to them, you can't compare i'd do anything big is a scar you'd better get thin the tanner you are the more you fit in bullshit you got a disease you follow the trends like the rest of the sheep boredom in this mobile home in nowhere u.s.a. somehow gotta make it home to richmond v.a. when i'm there i want to go but when i'm gone i don't i'll make it anywhere but here but here is where i've got to be anywhere but here i've gotta make it to dixie |
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