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Wheels keep turning over time this doesn't sit so good a constant filth remains in seed not getting out (still lapping) bend of bind, panic of doubt stilled ambition greed's isolation imprints sleeve keep your receipt, these shoes are wearing thin molded bearings feeble stance it's all in what you ball inside the degree you bind maintained before the presence of defeat sets your trailed distinctions a pace refined to you bend to how you feel carve what is real all moments met in your life will bend tight to you, clutching you through, dismissing luggage settled foes take time to read yourself up clean spin back vice from hold take time to repossess your needs you have and are what you're searching for worn out start looking around you're feeling the same as you portray to be complaining a disease that you won't pass to me your timing is never just set up and done your carving distinctions the pace you refine molded distinctions degree of bind hard time had by all some long some not so keep filling shoes keep signature recoil you now Stare at me and talk down you think you're better and it shows built yourself a plastic life for perfect living let yourself into my world then condemn my different views understand nothing of me surrounded by expenses for nothing expenses to shows that life's worth your time exterior reaffirm your perfect throne you're better than ever you've got more to show that life's worth your time fearing that poverty will force feed you to realize building a concrete moat to keep scum from your side not thinking you're so wrong misery there's a rise in the pressure no support from possessions now convinced with your credit you'll find a way to buy yourself some time disaligned in need of protection from yourself humanity's one step away now locked from your show home perfect world and from your perfect ways What didn't kill me left me cold enough to live this lie now i drift desensitized reality has had it's way with this time confidence now lost in comfort of familiar habits i know it's destructive but i can not get past this barricade i boiled up inside too high i've got to pull out of numbing phase hold down this fear push back self doubt i'm most afraid that i will fall to failure so much to say can't get it out it's all a waste chaste forced to indignant taste self propelled rejection it's more than i can take (right now) so sick of hiding from what i can't face so sick of hiding from what i can't face i must get through this wall of insecurity the thought of rejection more than i can take and i've got to get out of this numb phase set numb aside So i find my way home again the streets all mine another night of searching for a truth in our lies wasting precious time forcing impossible of convincing myself it'll work out tomorrow try to follow the outline of what should come to be only to find i'm overcome by fatigue an empty routine created for show has become just another escape from the world fabricating our mock progress faking smiles no one has to know the bleakness face to face with our undying will to make it just scraping gathering all pieces to complete the picture still hoping for comfirmation that this will never end respond to accusations from my thoughts in need of answers for where we are submerged into diluted efforts can't manage to pull out i've told myself i'm not tired so far a devotion too strong. Suddenly another weak breath endless ways to reenact the conflict within tempers flare they always seem to go unnoticed for the last lime hold on tight sorry crossed my mind fearless it must seem so selfish faint reflection fallen from my eyes takes a war to bring you down try to search for resistance fragile contents unforeseen attenuation held together by my voice tearing though the crowd silent stare i'd always tell you to move forward confident to push broken glass aside it's hard for you to see i will always be so close by hear me breathing understand my intention's shape each moment who's to blame who's to say what's right be wrong and i will nothing feels this true in anguish accept our faults one last time patience expired fearless when we always seem to learn the hard way drop all pretentiousness takes a war to bring you down understanding before this gets too far start to see things clearly now instead of on my own keeping things consistent a barrier broken though This prolonged suffocation out of hand prostrate to pressure rise a silence that's never silent inconsistent state of helplessness the end is not the answer it's defeat against your mind to get by release fists of untied anxiety for your sake and for mine weave dead end completion i don't want to feel the way i've been waiting to begin The longer it takes fewer break the fall escalate through dissension sense the deceit root for precedent save the lies before your hands are tied force the issue bullshit with a grin i'll see straight though your motives at it again who really cashes in vague response no mistakes ensure where i stand take back one chance create the boundary it's gone too far kingpin takes the fall never trust you kingpin takes the fall closure You don't know me you just sit the stunt you've seen all before still you don't say a thing the left out with no doubt your pocket away you've seen all before still you don't say a thing seen in your face no time to explain nothing won't ever change your ways, and now you're see a thing you never thought you'd see this less thing you thought you'd came out you cheat so quick from you to tick your feelings one less thing at a time Until this big revue i thought i'd figured out no release from the pressure growing strong confirmation from outside is a luxury but without i have to dig for the reasons found to live inject my life with meaning suffering from pains i needed a cure placed my attention in what could make a difference in my life all i wished for before was a reason to go on found in a tune hollow existence a grim prospect secured a distance and without i'm nothing sometimes i picture a life a picture i can't have denied it with this therapy i use to define identity what's lost in me to where i realize has how been refined security's no option invested all i had against recourse accepted rejection by decisions to ignore average life i was always so sure that the answer lay beyond the prescribed path refused admission to my escape provided the stage i need to realize/confirmed in my eyes I've Told Myself A Thousand Times Another minute into this position not so strong spiral down doesn't seem to be a reason not to fold let go, release the hold on vanity you're not just killing time staring at the faces betraying your own basis can't sleep when discouragement's withdrawn from all conscious remedies stop pushing accept what you've been given seems like you're trying for nothing should know it won't work out always chasing a distraction all your efforts no reaction afraid to shed disguise to reveal your fragile lies you're caught in the promise that everything's alright but not convinced that standards will be recognized sifting through the doubting hoping to validate lost time |
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