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and what about the times you did your best to assuage my troubled soul what happened to me what happened to you what was it that you said would see us through i want to know how to feel something real and i will try no more to run all this pressure getting closer and it seems like i've been here before time on my hands weight of the world laid bare my soul as i lose control run away you can retrace those steps and find your way once more i'll wait believe in yourself as the cruel world closes in take my hand i'll be a friend for you this weight you bare alone one day the light i know will illuminate your heart
when i beat my head against the wall of convention the blood i taste is everyone's i fought a battle thought unpopular for stakes nobody seems to see nobody sees but me one step forward two steps back come on and try me my pain is the pain of children my heart is burning with their shame when mother cries all day i'll wipe those tears away you can't grow up healthy in a house of for every father holding back the angry fire until five when it festers on the drive his boss has shamed him to tears he should "take it like a man" but he never had a man to tell him
how are you feeling? how does someone like you elude the moral quarantine does your repression only server the greater lie as you abuse and objectify all the emotions you defeat you've got the world at your feet because you think you've silenced all the critics of your misogynistic lies but when you wake up from your reveries you'd better realize you're a model of virility a specimen divine as you deflower you empower the false ego trapped inside and by the virtue of your "conquests" you've endeared yourself to those who you hold in high esteem you think you've silenced all the critics of your misogynistic lies but when you wake up from your reveries you'd better realize you've got to rectify that attitude you're a hopeless case and now you're too late you call her a whore she's just the same as you though she could never be that shallow but you just take what you can get and you throw the rest away another notch in your belt another score another lay you're taking she's giving you're losing you think you're winning you're time is running out now it doesn't feel the same
i suppose you did it out of love i feel that pressure from above i didn't perform quite up to par i only gained another scar i'm not your trophy i will not shine for you sorry for the disappointment i did the best i could but here i've let the family down again i'm your failure your mistake because i failed to break the tape i'm your shameful progeny your begotten tragedy you ought to know i'm not for show
you've sworn allegiance to your dreams but still it seems so hard that tightrope that you walk why can't you put it down drink your way through one more clouded chapter of your life the hands reaching out to help you only seemed to push you further away your time's up and away you've made your choice now there's nothing left to say your times up and away mistreated and abused but they couldn't steal your heart everyone was so confused but your friends all played their part most likely to succeed still you threw it all away now your dreams lie buried next to you they're gone forever where's the spark in your eye i miss your smile you're burning inside out did you want to? everything they told you to make the bad things go away everything that they kept from you everything i wanted to say
do you believe? we can make a change will you believe tomorrow? or will it slip away? black and white we're all the fucking same demographics keep up caught up in the game violence what the fuck do you expect? the cause has left us leaving nothing but effect the laughter has subsided leaving hatred in it's wake in a nation trusting no one sworn to bend but never break america is burning look around it's in the air but i'll be the last believer just as long as i still care and i still care what's going on? what's happened now? show me a purpose please show me how desperate times one thousand symptoms one disease government tradition and genocidal policies don't look back don't wait until history repeats no, no more lies no more bodies in the streets
like a weathered statue i will wait for you like the darkness fading waiting to see it through like an ardent cry wakes me from the silence of my sleep like a distant bell like a man who fights the system fights to keep if you have to ask the price you can't afford it there's nothing free in this world there's nothing free in this life like a super hero i'll try to save the world with an anesthetic to life a thousand fingers like a man accused i'll weigh the consequence like a man afraid of the madness just beyond the picket fence
why did you need to take that pill? never has and never will make you better make you well you're shackled in your self-inflicted cell sunlight you'll never see you're a prisoner of pharmacology and you're telling me you feel fine never better that's what you said in your last letter that was read aloud at your memorial last week where are you now? up above? i hope you find some kind of love that isn't bottled or tamper-resistant but unconditional and consistent the peace you've spent you lifetime searching for if this is what it takes maybe others can learn form your mistakes and turn off that blacklight before it gets too late
true freedom they give us no slaughter too sacrilegious the smoke clears on bloated bodies i feel safe now do they want me service we fought there in the jungles i saw nothing i felt no enemy we died there in the foxhole my companion lay bleeding in my arms so proud pride so quick to murder for posterity hatred trained to operate manually
i had a dream that i woke up in a sweat another self-inflicted nightmare i will not forget i felt a light i saw you shine something's wrong i felt that tremor in my soul that memory one last time this is the light this is the way where the darkness keeps the sun away this is the light this is the way this stream of memories that carries me away i know my head at least i thought i did i'd take a silver bullet through my soul if i could give this phantom friend this runaway train of thought somebody's been following me through every trial i've ever sought never sought these tears leave scars as they run down my face i'm changing i'm leaving now i'm leaving for a better place
you try to tell me where your heart is you say there's nothing wrong and the honesty in your eyes tells me that i should be strong i don't want to get wrapped up in morbid reflection because that's a pessimistic space and the situations i imagine are lost somewhere in you face because when were together it's bittersweet now your with him and i miss you i feel somehow incomplete i try to stand on my own i take it one day at a time and if you ask me how i'm doing i bite my lip and say i'm fine well i don't know i can't sing can't sleep do anything i just know i'll be there waiting for you to come around i know you tell me all the time that i worry too much but not a day goes by where i'm not thinking about you what we had what we could have if you just give me one more chance i miss you and it's so bittersweet
what should i say i guess things didn't go my way but you insist on shining light on my greatest failures fallible is me but you can see this isn't my reality it's just the way things go for us someone out there saying life just isn't fair but it's the disappointments and the great mistakes that make you wiser and what about the times you set me straight and still left me waiting at the gate it's just the way things go for us i'm sick of trying at your way did you really think i'd make it anyway i pulled this splinter from my face and found another worthwhile cause to take your place i woke up ok it's just another rainy day and i'm feeling the same way as you
i can feel my bones decay i haven't got a thing to say i never thought i could end up this way maybe i should have known but now my cover's blown i've been up for hours but my feet never touched the floor i can't pretend that i'm as funny as all you're friends so i'll keep this lampshade on my skull for one more night i've got a project car i've got a vcr i've got a hundred friends but i don't know where they are my life's a fantasy i'm just a wanna be another throw away contemporary enemy did you want me to be the life of the party i've made some mistakes so stop kicking yourself because i blame me it's still the same nothing's changed
i never knew how good i had it i had to treat you like a habit it became what i'd guess you call a slight obsession now i've had some time to work it out way too much time to be without the one i've wanted you're my right direction when you're back there do you think of me when you're alone before you sleep you are the one i'm waiting for this time's not like before i'm going to carry you away thinking good things now i know we'll work it out somehow i try to keep my chin up but it's so hard to let you go it never hurt before to be alone now your voice is salvation on the phone i only wish you weren't so far away
look out below the sky is falling today is the day the weak will be slain see carrion swarm towards human landfills a final resting place for the enemies of the state their truth is a lie with break neck speed and sterile affection we swallow a culture being spoon fed to us like dutiful sheep being led to the slaughter we awaken infected in the land of the free and the home of the brave
when it's time to start working to reconstruct a life programmed to self-destruct when it's time to set your sights on something better when all that you've known is the emptiness of being alone when friends start drifting away sometimes it's better to let go it only hurts to hold on to time worn memories sometimes it's never what is seems it only serves to break your will i had a dream last night that you and i got in a fight i never meant to hurt you but i guess it ended up that way we went our seperate ways and i stayed mad for six whole days that's when i realized when i'm alone i'm in bad company i want to help you but you've got to want to help yourself i don't want to bury another friend i take it day by day and watch the people i love just fade away where's the good in this? whatever happened to you? |
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