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| SHADOWS
OF DEFEAT
these walls keep closing in i'm just a mannequin it's time to go don't come too close to me i can't find no space to breathe it's time to go my touch the kiss of death more sick with every breath i just can't seem to slow it down now why line up to conform why wear a uniform to grow old and die in this same fucking town obsessed with misery life holds no joy for me it's time to go no colors only gray i die a little everyday it's time to go i'm born wrong too dead to feel wake up it's all to real it's time to go switched off there's no more pain padded walls i'm half insane it's time to go
been set up to take the fall tried hard not to lose it all but i shot straight right from the start a slow death from a broken heart but it doesn't mean a thing when my hearts in the songs we sing i've seen so much change still the strength remains our words bounce off your heads you don't hear a fucking thing we've said man i know your type and i can't relate a small mind filled up with hate too try to act so satisfied like you've somehow won no rewards for the ones who try to get things done just to survive it's hard to learn this game i won't be the first to take the blame the pressure builds up day by day we've worked too hard to throw it all away
i used to think you were on my side we never found a place to hide i let it go on too long like so many times before i don't know where i should start it seems like the hardest part to take your pretty world and tear it all apart let it go i can't fix you anymore let it go time to be stronger than before let me go crying all the time let it go and trust me i'm not worth your waste of time for the sake of sanity let's erase those memories there's nothing left here that will take the pain away there's no more mystery just too much history someday you'll understand it's really for the best connection rejection your tears won't carry me away completely forget me just let it go now it's time to move on
every interaction tainted with objectification
does it make you cool to put her in her place?
HERESY, HYPOCRISY, AND REVENGE look or what you've left for me now that you've moved on won't pass for therapy just one more scar that's never gone you tried to break me down time and time again rejection feels to scream but i can't make a sound it's me you tried to hide as i hold you in my arms as i feel your body broker is this just a dream? disappointment follows me it's always just behind self doubt bred solitude frustration robs me blind no pain no part of me i have grown numb and cold self-centered fantasy obsessed with self control this is your worst fucking nightmare one chance a clean break much more than i can take lies cast shadows dark things nobody knows you've lost who's won? my revenge has just begun i've just begun and i'm coming home
words spoken monotones there's violence in your pretty homes unfaded memories of the times we used to play no colors anymore there's laughter locked outside the door the trucks go rolling by on the freeways just behind you it's a self-fulfilling catastrophe sometimes i give myself the creeps watch your problems disappear and then reappear as mine come take a look at me i'm the poster boy for sympathy i can't find my way out of this place i've spent my life some things we never tell looking back it's just as well no comfort from anyone a frightened child with no place to run can you hear me calling out your name? calling out but nobody's there
and if the machine becomes so makes you so sick at heart that you cant take part that you can't even partially take part and you've got to put your bodies upon the gears and upon the wheels upon the levers follow the apperatus and you've got to make it stop and you've got to win the game of the people who run it to the people who own it but unless your free the machine will be prevented from working at all crawling through the mud all night long hunted like rats by the viet cong fields of death bodies piled up higher through the silence of the tet cease fine the will to fight seems so long gone while back at home they sing a protest song they burned them once then they shot them twice shot three times for the blood of christ sue sets en the days of rage what's said and done by the chosen ones sun sets on the days of rage as your cities burn the revolution comes crowd control becomes a police state on the streets of chicago 1968 the last call for civil liberty the black panthers versus o.p.d. from the berkeley campus to the fields of kent state the national guard must retaliate the guardsman smiled said he had as choice all he could see was the blood of christ yes should see the things they've done today our national guard fining into an unarmed crowd what about our human rights? what about our sense of community? first california then the world
try to turn away from the spectacle of living everyday the fear you cultivate the jingoist hysteria the lust for blood for god and state indoctrinate the children with your vitriol and lies then poison their humanity put blinders on their eyes flesh blood burning lights a propaganda scam sequestered and obedient to god and uncle sam first we need a threat to the democratic interest we protect create an air of fear so we can vilify then justify support the troops who fight and die they lie we die
clear heads yes filled with lies how dare you look them in the eyes i used to want the things you had now i know it was just a fad you lied and i'm still fucking waiting and you-you still talk your shit i thought we stood side by side to make a change i know i tried boasting heart that wasn't there you raped the scene that thought you cared in it for the cash right from the start now you're all washed up and you've got no heart i can still see you hide inside your shell of delusion not fooling yourself i can still see the sarcasm on your face as you say that you're doing it "for the kids" nothing mattered but the money and lies and now we all see through your pathetic disguise and we'll watch you fall
so many things i never said all those regrets and broken promises would it have mattered if i had told you everything i felt admitted i was scared of losing you would you have understood? remember when you said you'd wait forever and i thought it was true and as this broken heart just keeps on beating i'll send these letters home to you because i don't know what else to do i'll wait for you i guess it's been seven weeks and i can't get you of my mind when will i find my way back to where we were when i left the tape you sent my pillow's drenched with tears confirmed my worst fears
the distance between the things you say and your actions tell me everything you never could so i'll keep my grip and stay away why should i waste my time when you can't tell wrong from right? if you had your way i'd embrace convention and lose my will to fight distractions keep me off my game and i can't help but wonder if it was you would you still feel the fucking same? closed out shut down it doesn't matter to me because i've got the truth sick lies close ties your cheap talk ain't enough because we've got the truth i've got no time for narrow minds just playing the role you played the role played out your self doubt is going to force you to fold because you got caught up playing the role
i told you twice to stay away i know the games you're going to play i'm trying to walk the straightened line i don't need your problems killing my time sometimes i feel just like a puppet on a string everybody talks so loud and i can't hear a thing each day i find away to keep myself away from you don't you try to comfort me i don't need your sympathy this is how it's supposed to be looking through your jaded eyes it's so easy just to criticize i'm trying to do the best that i can i don't expect you to understand don't mean a thing to me you run around like rats speak with authority but never with the facts i've been afflicted yeah i'm addicted to you
YESTERDAY DIED-TOMORROW WON'T BE BORN there's something lost somewhere inside another darkened room where dreams all go to die once more a tear drops slowly to my feet again i recognize the triumph in defeat so tell me what can i do when it all falls apart? torn straight through tell me how to feel my broken dreams a life in disarray i shut my eyes my silence is my cell cold sweats and nightmares keep me awake the time keeps running down on how much i can take ripped myself to pieces on the fragments of a dream grim retrospective of a life torn at the seams when the emptiness becomes too much the voices lie i can't trust my touch the pain of living the fear of death you choose
when might makes right you want to bet the u.s.a. is now a terrorist threat free elections another casualty on the covert war on freedom and democracy spray paint (blood stained) walls fading light the death squads are coming to your town tonight m-16 to your head lie through your teeth or you might end up dead those stubborn peasants remain opposed to the western puppet that we've imposed not to worry they'll see it our way the c.i.a. trained death squads will crush the coop within a day hahahahaha laugh it away you're making friends with the u.s.a. a clear conscience when the price is right after all who needs human rights? police state now you rule by fear to stabilize this hemisphere for what?
i've played off devastation i told you it didn't mean that much but this world keeps on closing in on me whenever we fall out of touch it's those subtle difference keeping up appearances for what? it gets the best of me sometimes it's better not to know i've tried so many times to tell you how i feel but forever's such a long, long time and this apology's for real now there's a time and a place for saving face there's a time when it's all too much through the hardest times through the thick and thin i've always played it off and kept my grin but this life's too short to waste on pride this is the time and the place for me to clean up my side
it streaks across the sky towards bethlehem a shining star filled with hope and love. second coming, the new christ won't survive it's a second coming the christ will die he thinks he'll rid the world of it's sins. but he'll feel the nails go right into his hands. think about the first time that he came, all the millions that died in his name, the apocalypse is oh so near, soon enough we'll be in darkness. when the world finally got wise he got a spear right into his side.
like rats from the wreckage we patrol the decay through the ash and the darkness the scavengers pillage what's wasted away and power corrodes and compromises the hands once held so high the lies the vain plead for their very lives no sunlight or shadow just the rotting remains of the clergy pariah and the millions of sinners shackled in chains drowning in blood and holy water the bombs turned the battlefield to dust so what's left of the world to divide and to dominate and rape and defile or oppress and discriminate it's all over did anyone get their way
my war you're one of them you say that you're my friend but you're one of them you don't want to see me live you don't want me to give cuz you're one of them my war you're one of them you say that you're my friend but you're one of them i might not know what a friend is all i know is what you're not cuz you're one of them my war you're one of them you say that you're my friend but you're one of them i have a prediction, it lives in my brain it's with me every day, it drives me insane i feel it in my heart, that if i has a gun i feel it in my heart, i'd wanna kill some i feel it in my heart, the end will come come on!! my war you're one of them you say that you're my friend but you're one of them tell me that i'm wrong try to sing me your ego song you're one of them my war you're one of them you say that you're my friend but you're one of them my war. |
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