Not Your Savior 

Unlucky seventeen, already handed plans for the future 
Glamour obsessed, told how to dress, and shown how to think 
And I don't have a job, but I can show you how to be a slob 
So many days, wasted and glazed 
Sometimes I laugh aloud as I think about, 
You asking me "Please can you help?" 
Can't help my self 

I'm not your savior, I'm not who you want me to be 
A cowardly mistake I've made so many times before, refusing to break 
Cut my losses ties them with you, like a good boy I'll pretend 
And promise not to do it again 

Do you remember when, life was so simple and permanent? 
Everyone's changed, "Everyone's cool", Everyone sucks 
But I can't seem to complain, Exciting and new is just not there 
You're getting scared 

I'm not your savior, never thought I was anyway 
I'm a void with empty promises that backs out late 
Never said I'd change, taking back the words that we spoke 
Like a fuel tank running dry, you'll believe it when I choke 

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Life Size Mirror 

She was done before the start, always mending broken hearts 
Making others miserable not knowing who she's hurting 
Father said, "This day will be, one for everyone to see" 
Is it true you'll follow suit and have you learned a thing? 
It's just a selfish way to go, it's safe to say she'll never know 

For every person there's a whole life story waiting to be told 
When she is happy it's OK, but then these people start to fade 
Then we'll just watch her self-destruct as she gets old 

She put up defensive shields, to walk through all of life's minefields 
All defined by make-up and a car behind she's hiding 
"Father do you have to go, left me questions I dont know" 
Any answers or even close the life time lie was true 

She's gonna move on with her life, and take it one heart at a time 
And watch the little girl inside her wait behind as she goes on 
But with this black heart she decides, who she'll take in and shove aside 
Until the day she sees that everyone is gone 

Getting used to people leaving, thinking true love is deceiving 
Soon she'll know how lonely it can be 

Now was it really worth the pain? A couple pills make her feel sane 
While she lives out the story written for the part she is to play 
With so much shame for her to hide, there's no more dignity, no pride 
Then there will only be dark in her light of day 

And she will only see a reflection, of her father's rejection 
Nothing will change until she breaks this life, this life-size mirror 

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Chasing Rainbows 

Just heard the news today, let yourself down once again 
Trusted your feelings in a place that no one goes 
Will you do anything, to satisfy your so-called friend? 
There's something you ought to know, before you explode 

All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows 
Trusting those around you is an easy thing to do 
I'm not saying don't believe in someone that you don't know 
Just don't go on thinking that the whole world tells the truth 

It's all fucked up, being reserved and quiet 
She doesn't understand the message that you send 
Don't give it all away somewhere, someday there's someone 
Who can replace that state of mind, you never give it time (never) 

All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows 
Letting everybody crawl inside your heart and mine 
Kicking you is easy when you're down that's where the weak know 
To release their anger on someone who will not try 
To stand up, and give them a fight 

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Lies Can't Pretend 

I received your letter in the mail 
Sounds like times are hard for you again 
You said that you'd be nineteen in September of this year 
And you're breaking up with your first girlfriend 
"My dad and I got in a fight, he told me to leave" 
When everything was fine 
There isn't much that I can do to help you tes it's true 
But I promise that the hurt will heal in time... 
And you don't deserve this 

Lies can't pretend, just another way of thinking 
People can change when it seems they're not there for you 
Truth cannot lie, never heard a better word that trust 
Yes it's in you, know that it's true and right 

Let me count the ways that I feel so sorry 
When it rains it drains the spirit dry 
We all have our mishaps, misfortunes, misopportunities 
And the strength to carry on consider yourself free... 
And you don't deserve this 

Lies can't pretend, just another way of thinking 
People can change when it seems they're not there for you 
Truth cannot lie, never heard a better word that trust 
Yes it's in you, know that it's true and right 

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Why Doesn't Anybody Like Me? 

Maybe you don't understand it, what keeps them awake at night 
What goes through their little minds when you turn off the light? 
Always having to say sorry tears are stained on the pillow 
Like the light of the moon they can't be one 
Can't exist without the son 

Let's think clearly for a while 
Can he shine without a smile? 

Why am I alone with no one to be found? 
Looks like they know what's best for me 
Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand? 
Guess I'll have to crawl inside and I don't know why 
I'm sitting by myself, when the problem isn't mine 

Been around the block a few times, been beat up by all his friends 
Learing life is like a maze that never seems to end 
Like an open book, blank pages left for only him to write 
Life is short this chapter takes so long 
Can't tell the right from the wrong 

It's so hard for you to place 
An expression on his face 

Why am I alone with no one to be found? 
Looks like they know what's best for me 
Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand? 
Guess I'll have to crawl inside and I don't know why 
I'm sitting by myself, when the problem isn't mine 

Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand 
Why my friends and family left me 
At six years old he won't be taught a meaning to this mess 
He'll just have to take a guess, and make his own plan 
And we'll never see the child that was forced to be a man 

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Sleeping In 

Packing up the pictures in an old shoe box 
It's so silent I can almost hear you walk 
Down the hall standing in front of that window 
If heaven is so high, then why are you so low? 
Does it feel, that you're taking back the love that made him real 

In the darkness you will always see his face 
And I could never take the place of him 
Today I'm sleeping in 

Woke up it's too late and I should be in school 
There's always something wrong when you ignore the rules 
Never want to see myself in front of that window 
Sucking up your tears, didn't want to let me know too much 
Reaching out your hand for one last touch 

Take me with you, everybody here is fake 
And I don't wanna feel the same when you give in 
In a lifetime, time will always take our place 
But I will lay here shielded from the pain 

This is a long time from today 
You gave me all that I could take 
And gave me strength to carry on 

In the darkness, you will always see his face 
And I don't wanna be there when you do, give in 
In a lifetime, time will always take our place 
And I will lay here shielded from the pain 

I do whatever I want, you never let me down 
I always know when lost somehow you're found 
Although life has all thse consequences now 
And that's OK, and that's OK 

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Fairytale of New York 

It was Christmas Eve babe 
In the drunk tank 
An old man said to me, won't see another one 
And then he sang a song 
The Rare Old Mountain Dew 
I turned my face away 
And dreamed about you 
Got on a lucky one 
Came in eighteen to one 
I've got a feeling 
This year's for me and you 
So happy Christmas 
I love you baby 
I can see a better time 
When all our dreams come true 

They've got cars big as bars 
They've got rivers of gold 
But the wind goes right through you 
It's no place for the old 
When you first took my hand 
On a cold Christmas Eve 
You promised me 
Broadway was waiting for me 

You were handsome 
You were pretty 
Queen of New York City 
When the band finished playing 
They howled out for more 
Sinatra was swinging, 
All the drunks they were singing 
We kissed on a corner 
Then danced through the night 

The boys of the NYPD choir 
Were singing "Galway Bay" 
And the bells were ringing out 
For Christmas day 

You're a bum 
You're a punk 
You're an old slut on junk 
Lying there almost dead on a drip in that bed 
You scumbag, you maggot 
You cheap lousy faggot 
Happy Christmas your arse 
I pray God it's our last 

I could have been someone 
Well so could anyone 
You took my dreams from me 
When I first found you 
I kept them with me babe 
I put them with my own 
Can't make it all alone 
I've built my dreams around you 

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Pride 

I see you clinging, stereotyping just to feel comfort, just to belong 
Desperate for meaning to make sense of your life 
Let me try to make you understand... 
You got it wrong 

You're not gonna catch me waving flags over my head 
Looking straight and standing tall 
I refuse to build the wall by adding my own bricks 
That separate us all 

I'd rather die than be a part of your pride 

This ain't the homeland they've written books on 
Never have been there, how would you know 
Following footsteps that will get you nowhere 
And living by some rules that were made up one hundred years ago 

You're not gonna find me digging through my family tree 
Just to find out who I am 
I don't need to know that I'm linked to some murderer 
To live on the same land 

I'd rather die than be a part of your pride 

So it looks like I'll be here for a long time now 
Some things are better left mysteries 
Can't change the future when living in the past 
So do what you want and I'll decide my own history 

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Always Carrie 

When I'm awake at night, sometimes I picture you 
And hear those words again you said, "I'm leaving" 
I couldn't hold you down and not expect that you would drown 
I'm a clown, but no one's laughing 

Maybe you're from another planet, one I want to invade 
It's all been said (it's all been said) 
To me you're dead (to me you're dead) 
And it's time you turn your page 

I'm not sure what it was that led us down a dead-end road 
Some of those signs can be quite deceiving 
I knew your favorite things, didn't know that one of them was someone else 
I'm done believing 

Someday there will be understanding 
Everyday is a tragedy 
It's me you blame (it's me you blame) 
But it's the shame (but it's the shame) 
That you will always carrie, that wou will always carrie 
That you will always carrie 

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Let It Slide 

I spend a day or nine then finally realize 
There's really nothing going on 
So why should I try to shake leaves 
When there's no one in my trees that I should care about 

Let it fall, let it rise 
Let it be and let it slide 
Let tomorrow come and take my mind away 

I see the world get by 
And watch my friends get high 
I really don't care who's to blame 
They love to point fingers at you 
'Cause there's nothing else to do but waste away my time 

Let it fall, let it rise 
Let it be and let it slide 
Let tomorrow come and take my time away 

Let it fall, let it rise 
Let it be and let it slide 
Let tomorrow come and take my time away 

Let tomorrow come and take my time away 

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Six Degrees From Misty 

When you were little she sold you out 
Out be the ounce the drugs and alcohol was free 
Or maybe it was your imagination 
Friend of the family but now the foe 
She gets inside your mind with everything you smoke 
That's why your conspiracy comes from some words she spoke 

The rain is controlled by misty 
Who's one but feels like three 
She always has to be behind every little problem I face 
I'd drive to Ireland but there's a lake between the land 
She hired private eyes to follow me 

Maybe I'll go to Paris and France 
And meet the Pope and someone to be with for life 
A place far away where she could never find us here 

Everything bad is a "misty" 
She's hiding in that tree 
I'm swimming at the beach and she's got submarines and high technology 
She runs my life and in my dreams at night 
And everywhere I go I'm always six degress, from misty 

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Coming Too Close 

There was a time when you would come and go 
Now there's no time left to react 
Just as it starts to heal in comes a bitter end 
Well you were already to leave my side and then... 

You're coming too close and I can't pretend 
That I'll pick you up or let you come in again 
We've been through this before, so please understand 
That nothing in this heart can save you from the pain you seek 
If you pick up the phone please don't call on me 

No one can save you from the undertow 
Nobody can blame you for the past 
Just as I started thinking "Everything's alright" 
You showed us surely that your tenth time was your last 

You're coming too close and I can't pretend 
That I'll pick you up or let you come in again 
We've been through this before, so please understand 
That nothing in this heart can save you from the pain you seek 
If you pick up the phone please don't call on me 

Yesterday I saw you falling to the ground 
Seems like things get worse when no one is around 
It's not OK 

You're coming too close and I can't pretend 
That I'll pick you up or let you come in again 
We've been through this before, so please understand 
That nothing in this heart can save you from the pain you seek 
If you pick up the phone please don't call on me 

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Saddest Song 

What's wrong with everyone? There's a panic in their eyes 
Like others getting close are aliens, in disguise 
They smell conspiracy on the lips of dearest friends 
Reminds me of a time long ago, They think it's the end 

Of what we all created, used to love but now we hate it 
Life is as simple as the mind it lives in 
The truth is a waste of time, when we're conditioned to understand 
Lies are the right was as we watch the blind leading the blind 

Everything that we see is another's suffering 
Learn to enjoy the message the TV is delivering 
You're safe being the glass like being at the zoo 
The face of guilty thoughts turns around and looks just like you 

Don't want be another, victim but you watch them suffer 
Organized, de-sensitized and trained 
To wake up at 6 AM, go to work come home and in bed by ten 
When the feeling is safe and warm 
Horrified by any change, living by consensus destroys us 
Paints pretty pictures at the same time will do us more harm 

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Room 19 

It's been so long since you've been here, and I'm dying 
Is there something you would like to say? 
Just drop the present on the shelf, by the flowers 
And make the feeling go away 
Looking back I can't recall, who was listening 
When I used to walk the streets at night 
Like a bird that used to sing, I was flying 
I was happy all the time, and it's hard to look back 

Better days and different ways I can't explain 
Another song to sing it all was simplified 
Don't know what it's about, what have I learned to live without? 
It takes a day to live a life 

I can't believe the way the world is so different 
Look what the lines in my face have made 
Living in my bed I'm right next to the road 
The one that goes the other way, takes me to a different place 

Did you know, that I was just as young as you 
I had a job, a home, a family, and a car 
Did you say that yesterday or just right now? 
You'll never know the feeling of my bleeding heart 
Did you say that yesterday or just right now? 
You'll never know the feeling of my bleeding heart 

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