Feels Like Home

It's too late to talk to you 
And it's too soon to say good-bye 
Listen where ever you may be 
You still live inside my mind 

Something tells me that you are free again 
In a place that feels like home 

It's never easy to understand 
Why memories hold our hand 
But people let go

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International You Day

i'm sorry that it took so long 
to write this song 
but i gave up 
you see one million words can't describe 
how it feels 
to know your love 

where did i go wrong? 
i should have told you from the start 
that i'm closer then you think 
when we're apart 
nothing that i've tried 
is as simple as this line 

but without you 
my life is incomplete 
my days are absolutely gray 
and so I'll try 
let your heart know for sure 
that i have so much more to tell you 
every single day 

i swear i'm giving up my inside 
to the one 
that i adorded 
i know this world is big enough 
for you and i 
but i'll give you more 

i'm coming home today 
to wipe the tear drop from your eyes 
i'm totally enamored by your life 
nothing that i've done 
has ever been for one 

but without you 
my life is incomplete 
my days are absolutely gray 
and so I'll try 
let your heart know for sure 
that i have so much more to tell you 
every single day 

my life is incomplete 
my rites are absolutely gone 
so wake me up 
before you leave today 
something i need to say 
cause they'll be nothing when you're gone

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Pre-Medicated Murder

More times than five 
I've been right here by your side 
Still Wondering....Where did you go? 
Walk down the hall in a mental menacle 
Don't want to be 'round 
When you take yourself out 

But I have more vigor than this 
Step to the plate to swing and miss 
And it's a complicated life 
When "how you live, is how you die" 

Looks like your soul is connected to the wall 
A photgraph stands by the bed 
Of better times, when we crubled with our spine 
But lived the next day...and put the Malice away 

So now you sleep inside the space.
A bed of roses, the thorns are placed
That's when I noticed the drip 
Ignored the line that didn't skip 
It seemed the blue suburban sky 
turned to gray, polluted night 
No more sleepless nights just for me 
But as for you, a memory.

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Dumb Reminders

i heard the message 
then i rang it off the hook 
i didn't get you till 1 am 
who was wrong and who was right 
and this distance caused a fight 
now i'm ready to give in 

honestly 
i'd give anything 
to be with you 
right now 

this town is full of dumb reminders 
having a good time can't you tell 
hang up the phone and then i come back down 
miss you i hope you're doing well 

i'm used to waiting 
what's a voice without a face 
i think i'm dying without you here 
so i drink myself to sleep 
and then i hide beneath the sheet 
and i try to disappear 

i get up 
every single time 
cuz you keep me 
alive 

this town is full of dumb reminders 
how far ahead from you in miles 
if i could get one time as take it down 
maybe then i could see you 

this town is full of dumb reminders 
having a good time can't you tell 
hang up the phone and then i come back down 
miss you i hope you're doing well

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Any Number Can Play

They will mislead you, plug in and bleed you 
I swear I heard the DJ say 
"Swallow temptation", believe the answer 
Is in the order you obey 

I know my purpose isn't on a poster sign 
I'm still part of the game that any number can play 

Majority vote, identity? No! 
Top forty reasons to spoon feed 
Immunity lost, full price at your cost 
Industry living by disease 

Imagine, idolize and idealize 
A dream a nighmare couldn't change 
Any number can play 

The sound remains unclear, 
There's little left to hear except contradiction 
Looks like somebody made our mind 
When history repeats the hit that I've heard for my whole life 

Bring back request to radio, 
Your favorite song was written but you'll never know 
A selection for us to see a blind conspiracy 
Another version of the imitated tune and not one soul was saved 
Any number can play

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Friends Of The Enemy

lost in confusion 
not knowing which way to return 
to the person you know 
this trepidation makes you 
take it out on someone else 
you forever 
everybody wins 
i don't think so 

what would the worst thing be if you 
took the wheel and you lost control 
no one is safe inside your safety zone 
don't understand but i hear what you're saying 
the repetition of a lonely life 
somebody tell me why the 
heart is waging war against the 
friends of the enemy of your mind 

not your opinion 
sounds like you learn it from a show 
it appears you have lost 
so sick of marching in your lonliness parade 
stay together underneath a giant tidal wave 

what would the worst thing be if you 
took the wheel and you lost control 
no one is safe inside your safety zone 
don't understand but i hear what you're saying 
the repetition of a lonely life 
somebody tell me why the 
heart is waging war against the 
friends of the enemy of your mind 

your imatated 
ordinary life 

its when that you can't break free can you 
take a chance as you let it go 
happy without the words you'll never know 
no way to lose when your mimicking you're paying 
a no decision forbidden home 
no one is safe inside your safety zone 
don't understand but i hear what you're saying 
the repetition of a lonely life 
no one is safe inside your safety zone 
don't understand but i hear what you're saying 
the repetition of a lonely soul 
no one is safe inside your zone

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Angela

I didn't mean to drag under 
But I was thinking about you 
And how your eyes swallowed me whole 
I've tried my hardest to forget it 
But a broken heart is murder for the soul 

How does it feel to be 
One of the beautiful people? 
Everytime that I leave it's like goodbye...Forever 

Angela don't hate me 
No matter what they say 
I'll always love you 
Don't believe the authorities 
Angela believe in me 

Remember when we danced together 
And I promised you the world? 
Well, I'll have to take that back 
Because my whole life has been capsized 
In a minute all the colors turned to black 

My heart was killing me 
And no one could hear her scream at all 
Let's runaway, if only for a day...I'm guilty 

Angela I'm sorry I've failed you again 
And this time it's for good 
Don't believe your family 
I'm in hell, and you're leaving me 

Angela I'm sorry 
Angela believe in me.

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Let Me Down

She's never alone, because she's scared of what she might say to herself
Always drinking in the backroom of the bar where everyone turns in
A half-hearted grin 

She won't be afraid as long as that prescription keeps going through 

And all the happy pills make her look like cardboard cut out of someone,
I use to learn from 

But on the phone, she's telling everyone, that there was a blue sky, she left behind
And there's a place that no one knows about,
Away from integrity she writes a book in her head that nobody will read

Whatever you say, please don't talk about the time when she was young
Apparently that was a different person and so long ago it's strange to me,
there's no history 

But there's a past and she's telling everyone
It must be a garden, that wouldn't grow With roots of shame,
too sensitive to blame to herself as we watch he drown,
I can't save the queen without a kingdom or a crown 

Somewhere in this lonely game of sympathy there is a selfish dream
That makes me sick
Standing on the high wire while you're on the ground
To you what is dangerous is safe and sound...
You let me down

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This Is A Rebel Song

(girl): 
I love you my hard englishman 
Your rage is like a fist in my womb 
Can't you forgive what you think I've done 
And love me, I'm your woman 

And I desire you my hard englishman 
And there is no more natural thing 
So why should I not get loving 
Don't be cold englishman 

(guy & girl): 
how come you never said you love me 
in all the time you've known me 
how come you never say you're sorry 

(girl): 
i do 

Oh please talk to me englishman 
What good will shutting me out get done 
Meanwhile crazies are killing our sons 
Oh listen, englishman 

I've honored you hard englishman 
Now I am calling your heart to my own 
Oh let glorious love be done 
Be truthful englishman 


(guy & girl): 
how come you never said you love me 
in all the time you've known me 
how come you never say you're sorry 

(girl): 
i do 
i do

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Solitaire

I can pretend for you 
that I mean every word said 
it's true 
That I'd probably rather be 
like a stranger in disguise 
And act as if nothing ever 

Died or faded away, 
got lonelier with age 
And time isn't on our side 

I'm sorry to take 
the thoughts that keep you awake 
And make it seem like they're overrated 
You certainly talk about me more when 
I fall down 
And when I get up 
my time is never enough 
Loved in front behind my back hated 
I guess it has everything to do with luck 

I can defend the truth 
but I sound like white noise to my friends 
As I raise my glass to you 
In a stupor we speak words 
That couldn't be more honest 

Lies we lived before 
are fights without a war 
I'm dead when it's in your head 

I'm starting to think that all the buoys we sink 
Are cutting our chances of being saved 
I see that the end is all we have to let us know 
I'd like to believe in something more than a dream 
For when the will to be one has faded 
I guess the truth will soon be deceived 
My friend that isn't there 
My solitaire

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Undefeated

I see you have lost the ambition to love 
When did you get so hard and callous? 
Things are good today 
But I think I've had enough 
Here comes the part where you turn off the switch 

Everyone's dumb, Taking the wind out of your sails 
Victory claimed, this is your song 
How will you sleep when you're alone, when they are gone? 

Over and over just like a broken toy 
Heard all exuses, what makes you do it? 
You pedal back for miles, just to claim your prize 
He is the exit, to your home built on lies 

Nothing is true 
How can you expect them to stay? 
Undefeated, who did you burn? 
Cannot be taught, everyone's hurt, nothing is learned.

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Insecurity Alert

emergency dispatch i think something's wrong 
with words its so hard to construe 
the images follow a dream through a song 
the nightmare has finally come true 

rhetorical speeches are made on the screen 
to shut us up and rest assure 
an obviously panicked media machine 
is testing the will of a country so unsure 

mission complete we lost control 
suddenly frightened by it all 
to put it simply we will never be the same 
there is no redemption in this war 
so please don't forget what this is for 
cause that's how our history is made 

security cop with their hands in the air 
the lock on the gate was destroyed 
now everyone rises from the lassiez faire 
we can empty the cup but we cannot fill the void 

without an enemy to kill 
the blood of the innocent is spilled 
to put it lightly we are not wanting to see 
prepare yourself for disaster now 
so few are sane here anyhow 
i realize that words don't justify the pain 

set up the guillotine 
and televise the execution 
we have to ask ourselves, can we feel safe? 

you can't spell believe without lie

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Nailed Shut

I always thought I had a pitch-black mind 
Surrounding voice change my view 
I feel fine now, it is a shame how I found out: 
A) When I was a kid I was full of hate 
B) Couldn't save the teenager that never felt blame 
C) Thought I blazed a path on a dead end street 
Always incomplete 
D) None of these are an excuse for the person 
I've avoided 
And all you fuckers in denial 
Looks like you'll have to get there soon 
to wait awhile 

Before you send me off in a nailed shut box 

Stopped feeling insecure with what was said 
Indifferent to the voice attatched to the head 
"What we will become, is how we choose" 
Fight like a dumb man when you make him think 
You stay afloat for now, but surely you'll sink 
With synthetic friends 
Now I conclude, I won't confide in you 

Hypocrite please, you know the truth 
you're just to "happy" to decide it 
Like a prediction in a nursery ryhme 
To shut me up you'll have to wait a whole life time 

Before you send me off in nailed shut box 
please let me know 
Before you send me off in a nailed shut box 
Please let me know.

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