Patience

Patience is nothing worth holding onto.
Bite my tongue?
Why should I when you never did that for me?
When were you schooled in technicalities?
I didn't know that I made friends with fucking rock critics.
As the days go by I've forgotten my limbs.
Days pass like we're running out of time.
Show me some scars.
What good is this if I don't remember?
I'm not gonna let myself be concerned with something so distant.
Hold tight, and maybe I will survive.
Hold tight, and maybe some part of me...

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Strangled

I feel strangled.
I feel torn into insufficient amounts of two.
Is this a sign of what I'm made of,
or how I allow myself to be treated?
Grab the wrists, pull away.
I don't want to die today, so I won't.
I can't believe this is me,
well you're drowning me with my own hate, so I...
Do you feel they're laughing at you through the TV? I know I do.
Do you wonder how they get away with that shit they say?
I was the glue that held us together.
I'll be that fucking stitch forever.
When you feel like there's nothing left inside of you
just remember I wanted something I could hold onto...
Are the mental restraints a good replacement for me?
It's such a pretty sound, ear to the ground.

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Animal

Tension's up like fists in a fight.
You should've called me.
It would've meant something.
This is my mind on your recorder,
this is my soul that you're hearing.
I used to have my own songs.
If I don't mind, then this problem remains my own.
Thinking out loud just makes you turn away.
Your silence is cruching.
All I want. Animal.
Damn, you knew you were wrong.
With all the things you know, with that little grace you show.
Just "send a list of instructions to the factory
and upon its return we'll embrace it...
only if it's gold, only if it's gold"
It's sickening in stereo.
Your silence is crushing.
All I need. Animal

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Contention

Watch your expectations crumble.
I hear you (you say that) the things (I have) are the same things you never,
you never knew you never wanted.
I take those things with me to sleep.
I'm not the one you want.
We have no time.
I don't think I can.
How hard can you push on me,
and how indifferent can I be without making this something more than 

I want to put up with.
I won't let a heartbreak happen.
I can see the harm; I had a net for August.
It's safe, let's not slow it down, we won't wear it out.
We time-travel.

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Motionless

I'm bleeding misery.
Oh, eternal discontent- how consistent.
The only thing stable in my life is how I try...
To still this beating mind, so that I can finally rest.
The essence of my character is that I'm unable to be without worrying.
The words of dead humans seem so much more sincere
than the half-signed contracts that tend to occupy the open air.
Still this beating mind, so that I can finally rest.
The essence of my character is that I'm unable to be without worrying.

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Piece By Piece

What can you do when you feel like growing up is catching up on you?
I feel replace in a place I'm not a part of in a way I can't erase.
Piece by piece watch it break off.
This morning streets were lined with enemies
and I never wanted to leave so badly.
To you this promise I'll make, without you I'd never sleep.
I've changed as much as I can.

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The Body

Conversations haunt me like the body that wouldn't sink.
If I could I'd take back some things that I have said.
I put a lot on you, it was good for sympathy,
but the truth is that I was as bad.
I can't say nothing, I can't do nothing.
Watch the things I sit with come flying out.
Try responsibility, not pacifism.
Don't take comfort in that you are damaged, just find a way.
Find a way to release the excess.
You'll find yourself better off.
Jump in. Don't slow down.
You don't think of me.
I won't retract what I've done for her, on behalf of her.
Don't take that away. I won't deny the time of it.
Someone said, "Take the past. You're not a reactionary."

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Kinetic

Through the strength of your arms, I realized I was off the mark.
All I really wanted was a pair of interested ears.
I learned that for every pause, I was almost guaranteed more time to speak.
It's always the selfish who say that life is way too short.
I'm not looking to get old, but I bet it'll happen anyway.
Now I look at my hands they don't move the same as two years ago.
At a slow steady pace, I made my way back home.
At least there I won't be ashamed.
Earlier today I felt the warmth as the skin it held the heat,
now the city surrounds me in different tones of gray.
Those are the same cries that make my bones shake...
Those are the same assholes that take more than they can handle.
I'm alone, but I'm not lonely.
I have kinetic energy.
The dividing line will separate us all.
Sometimes it's those nights,
where I'm all I have is really all I need...

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The Mistakes You Make

Hello stepping stone.
Wipe that smug look off your face.
Well, I know I can't.
A quick stab back in the face, a hit when you're down.
See, people are disposable.
Every now and then I find a heart and mind that match my own,
and those are the only ones worth pushing for.
Oh, please won't you try and just hold on tonight.
Well, he can't see what you do to me.
I read the lonliness on your face,
and I can really tell you're really not okay.
In my mind things are just left open wide.
The last of innocence makes me wrong instead of right.
It's part of becoming accustomed to my body.

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Out Of Touch

Pick up the pieces.
Listen until it sinks in, or at least until you go crazy again.
Anything to show you understand.
The more you have a fit, the more I back away.
Tie those loose ends up.
The ones that you seemed to have cut.
Why don't you fucking go?
Why don't you show me how strong you are?
Hey, am I out of touch?
The things I do to keep your mouth shut.
I have watched mistakes they take the shape of flesh and blood, and even a name.
It's the truth that would tear your heart right out.
You know, I calle dlast night just to tell you I tied those loose ends up,
the ones that you seemed to have cut.
Every moment you bitch, know that this is your shit.
The pointed-finger play affects me less
not that I understand it doesn't have to be someone stringing someone else along.
I'll minimize all I want.

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Back To You

Save your pride.
If you could separate your fears from your beliefs,
then I think you'd see how you are no more alone than a million others could be.
If we stay alive just by changing, then from what are you made?
Of all the things I didn't tell you, I never lied.
What's you connection?
Omission or failure to confide.
The plan's to hit me with all the force of energy I've saved.
If she only knew my wrongs, things would be going right.
Speak so slowly.
How can this be happening?
Sharing air with the enemy.
I read a fucking joke on a storage room wall that robbed more girls 

than it was ever meant to.
More than one's too much.
She looked at me and told me we were only human beings,
and she explained how we fit perfectly.

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Disconnect, Disconnect

Every time I hear your name, it bears an uncanny resemblance to defeat.
Though it would be nice to touch base, it's hard to face the things we've been.
I don't remember your precious smile,
I still remember the ways you showed your worth.
I know what you want from me.
You're not here and I'm not well.
I hope you feel the pull, it'll bring down to where I go,
and that's what I know of life, cuz it was all I was shown.
What I know now, I could never go back to you.
Disconnect and disconnect and disconnect.
The heart aattack comes right back, right where we left off.
I point the gun too much.
Fuck, you're such an easy target.
I said I couldn't carry a goddamn thing, but you gave it anyway.
Half-flattered you believed in me, half-sorry you made a mistake.
I hope it's cold in your room, let the warmth lure you home.
I hope it's cold in your room, and like a magnet it'll bring you home.

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Going On The Instincts

You should see how ignorant you are being.
You wouldn't know the first thing about me.
Right on command.
Sound of fire.
You assume I'm stupid, and I've wandered off alone.
I'm no threat to myself, or you in your wheel chair.
For every inch, there's amile.
Limits and lines is a matter of pride.
"Where we are now" and where we "want to be," the difference is unsettling.

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Anchor

Cristina, I'm tired of being so far away.
Yeah, I'm still here; I'm not going.
What if I try and stop?
I'm responsible for you.
Until the anchor breaks.
Four years ahead.
What are you thinking?
I feel so together.
I need you now.
You have faith, but I know that I won't last.
Aren't we so tired of waiting for days to end?
How do we tread on when these fuckers are making our plans?
Dear everyone, I've been thinking.
I feel misrepresented.
Things are moving to slow; I want the control of this.
"There's got to be some kind of way out of here."
It's a lie too only yourself.
When people have you figured, carvings that read, "idle will kill."
Goddamn, it gets so hard not knowing what's going on.
All the while I carry your cross.
Who owns these desires?
You haven't said a word but I understand.

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