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monday sunshine so high it´s hard to see through the sunday clouds still lingering how you wound up in the sea spinning above while burning inside further you go and deeper you dive don´t mean to deceive but it´s they who believe they fall in love with the girl they perceive not you blind them with kindness until they are reminding they´re lonely and desperate and you have a secret it´s something they all think they need spinning above and burning inside further you go and deeper you dive don´t mean to deceive but it´s they who believe they fall in love with the girl they perceive not you they see what they want in you they get what they need from you they take advantage of you they would be nothing without you on your landlocked island you´ve only got nice things to say everyone is so delighted in a world so white clean and safe sailing safely lightly drifting no resistance calmly as predicted what´s the difference you´re only dreaming master of your own dimension narrow as the minds you lay of all the mild and sifted good friends bought taylor made sailing safely lightly drifting no resistance calmly as predicted what´s the difference you´re only dreaming i creep up the stairs while you pretend to sleep you made promises you never meant to keep shallow as you are how do you succeed why are you afraid of what you´ve never seen of people you can´t change behaving honestly i know what you are you´re just a fallen star another fallen star through the street lights and forfeited lanes with a trunk full of everything that we could get there is a place that´s safe for those who know no better that´s where we keep our hideout hidden we´re travelling destinationless with an open ticket for a one way trip free of any expectations and careless while they crack that whip if the sun won´t come up tomorrow this is where i want to be no way of knowing how much time you have borrowed i try to keep mine free we´re travelling destinationless with an open ticket for a one way trip free of any expectations and careless while they crack that whip what would you decide when ignorance can be such bliss you see a car full of zeros destined to die unsatisfied i don´t need to know where we going i can still enjoy the ride we´re travelling destinationless with an open ticket for a one way trip free of any expectations and careless while they crack that whip what would you decide when ignorance can be such bliss car windows icing over speaking steam with your breath through the floating strands of your hair am i just like the rest you say you don´t want anyone or anything say this hurts you too i wouldn´t bother but this means everything to me so spare me now rehearse the words you say repeat them again as you see my driveway while searching for something more beyond this lonely hill i pretend to hear you act as if i understand i try to convince you i don´t hate you but it´s hard to do you say you don´t want anyone or anything say this hurts you too yeah you too i wouldn´t bother but this means everything to me so spare me now rehearse the words you say repeat them again as you see my driveway while searching for something more beyond this lonely hill your mouth grew into your mind no longer afraid to say what you think you´ve realized that you´re not as small as they would like you to believe don´t feign approval anymore and don´t you you shy away they are the ones who´ll choke on their words believe what you say they threaten and manipulate shadows afraid of the light that creates them they spit in your face to test you they only show when it´s safe don´t feign approval anymore and don´t you you shy away they are the ones who´ll choke on their words believe what you say drawn to each poleyou can be swayed with a voice in each ear they coax you away you never took the time to weigh your thoughts you never thought you could be held responsible they are the ones who´ll choke on their words believe what you say searching for pictures in the tiles on the floor while the day light slips by almost unnoticed minutes to hours spent doing less voluntary confinement heart beat at rest all systems failing lost at sea not sailing only just getting by at best i´ve long resisted the static i exist in i should be calloused instead i built this palace raise the bridge i´ll spend the evening in and out the window with more than i care to know you don´t need to feel ashamed of things you will only do again guilty thoughts will fade away with a routine of denial and forgetfulness all systems failing lost at sea not sailing only just getting by at best i´ve long resisted the static i exist in i should be calloused instead i built this palace raise the bridge i´ll spend the evening in and out the window with more than i care to know you don´t need to feel ashamed of things you will only do again guilty thoughts will fade away with a routine of denial and forgetfulness you want to be someplace warm probably mexico even though it´s really not that cold been planning a girl girl trip in a motor home to see how it feels to leave you wanted to see just how good it feels to leave never mind the mess you´ve left behind you wanted to see just how good it feels to leave and leave everything behind just a chance to breathe a little time of your own it don´t really matter where you go i´ll buy you some magazines you can call me from a roadside phone let me know when your coming home you know where to find me whenever you decide you know that i´ll be here when you get home you wanted to see just how good it feels to leave never mind the mess you´ve left behind you wanted to see just how good it feels to leave four hundred of my closest friends forgotten names that I pretend to know it hasn´t been that long so how you´ve been you look the same remember when the doughboys played at gilman and they broke up on your lawn I wish it could always be like this is something I´ve been missing it´s not too late to change what you´ve become the last time I saw everyone we buried our friend and his gun I think he´d be happy here right now don´t be jaded I don´t want to spend another long and lonely weekend by the phone without anyone to call I´ve had a lot of time to think and I´m so tired of thinking I know why he put that bullet in his skull I forgot how good it feels to be part of a spinning wheel supported and supported on and on forget the judgement and the games forget the shit talk and the shame you will only be young for so long I wish it could always be like this something I´ve been missing it´s not too late to change what you´ve become the last time I saw everyone we buried our friend and his gun I think he´d be happy here right now don´t be jaded I don´t want to spend another long and lonely weekend by the phone without anyone to call I´ve had a lot of time to think and I´m so tired of thinking I know why he put that bullet in his skull because life can be so dull you ride the rail and you stop at every station you want some of everyone to see what you are missingtake what you like without hesitation and to justify your ways just use your imagination you shop around you borrow things and you take them back you pt them on you wear them around awhile until you find out what they lack you put them on your roll your tongue and it sounds like conversation you loosen up see if that gets his attention you toss them around with all your breezy lies until they´re stuck in your web full of flies you shop around you borrow things and you take them back you pt them on you wear them around awhile until you find out what they lack you put them on an empty nest ist just a tangled mess since your bird has flown you filled her with emptiness light enough to float you taught her everything she knows think you´d know by now it don´t feel the same this time around take a walk down your old street and try not to forget you tied her down you left her alone she stuck it out too long with you out of sight she kept you in mind on her first flight think you´d know by now it don´t feel the same this time around take a walk down your old street and try not to forget how do you feel now you feel alone you don´t feel so smug do you since your bird has flown think you´d know by now everything´s changed somehow take a walk down your old street think you´d know by now the corner store is out of your brand of cigarettes the rain has stopped and left the dark grey sidewalks wet twice burned you´re saying things that you would like to forget it´s been a while since you lost your confidence a nervous smile an empty place you watch the floor i hesitate how long does it take to know it´s not just circumstance how long should i wait knowing there won´t be another chance too much too late an empty place you watch the floor i hesitate there´s nothing left to see see my eyes closed in fear tell me what i want to her how long does it take to know it´s just circumstance how long should i wait knowing there won´t be another chance too much too late an empty place you watch the floor i hesitate there´s nothing left to say see my eyes shut with fear can you tell me i´m not really here how long does it take to know it´s just circumstance how long should i wait knowing there won´t be another chance too much too late an empty place you watch the floor i hesitate how long i hate the way you make me feel that´s the look on your face that´s how quiet i´ve been why do we try you sleep through the night i sleep through the day see how we can compromise everything´s going to be ok why do we try if the weight of this all is too much by now the rest of my life might be too long i know i´ve changed i watched myself slip away i´ve compromised everything´s going to be alright why do we try why do we try if the weight of this all is too much by now the rest of my life might be too long i know i´ve changed i watched myself slip away i´ve compromised everything´s going to be alright i compromised i compromised everything´s 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