this side i show
but which side is me
lost somewhere in between
there's a price you pay for living
she had a boy
couldn't make him grow
saw the truth in his eyes
filled him full of shit
made him one of her own
young and old
we do as we're told

you believe it
but can't comprehend
when your life ends
same why that it began
you get what you deserve
this man you see
but which man is me
who am i sopposed to be
i take a piece of everything i'm given
it all seems so far away
but you can count the days.

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Capsized

i hate you still
yet i imitate you
you're in my dreams
pushing me around
i move my mouth
i watch her cry
its killing me
and you wonder why
always said i wouldn't be that way
i always said i wouldn't be that way
capsized
cut down to size

like colors bleed
now they're all the same to me
i feel his hand
and i know
i'm damned
a puppet on a string
and the man behind the screen
this is the last time i treat you like that
this is the last time i act like a man
this is the last time i drink myself to sleep
this is the last time i act before i think
oh, but the things kids say.

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Stepson

im free
he cant touch
me six feet down
and there's no sadness
hands and heads full
old and hostile fists are pounding
nothings simple
no respect or meaning
why the screaming
when hes gone
burn the house down
too proud to come to me
when you were dying
well look at the dash
now your frying
hands and heads full
old and hostile fists are pounding
nothings simple
no respect or meaning
why the screaming
when he's gone
burn the house down
nothings simple
no respect or meaning
why the screaming
never whimper
hide your feelings
and when he's gone
burn the house down.

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Bad day

it's been another bad day
just saw a dog get hit on the freeway
with my stomach in my mouth
i almost hit a truck driving in the next lane
spent all my money on beer
and i've got rent to pay
i was late again this morning
i'm laying in the bed i've made
if i had a fall out shelter

i could lock myself inside and sleep
somebody could come and drop a bomb on me
maybe then something would change
lately i can't stand people
they're always rubbing me the wrong way
i don't feel like smiling
it wouldn't look right on my face
that's just the way i feel
it's been another bad day.

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Tag along

tag along
baby girl
close behind
tender sweet
tag along
little feet
all is well
within your world
don't believe
all you hear
never fear
never fear
shut your mouth

she's too young for that
she don't know, don't know,
don't know not yet
shut your mouth
she's too young for that
she don't know, don't know,
don't know not yet
i never even said a word
but she can see right through my eyes
still too young to understand
should you go, should you go there
should you go, should you go now
everything, everything's alright
everything, everything's just fine.

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Routine

grinding your fingers down
the skin on your back wears thin
dust clouds billow at your feet
you're gonna get lost
unless you stop that head spin
now i lay me down
nothing tastes so sweet

i can take my time
i like pulling on my own strings
there's too much rushing around
you're leaving out something
don't think, just blink
nothing on my mind
i feel too good to say

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Simca

little blue bomb
is waiting for me
i sit right down and turn the key
she starts to roll
burning down the west highway
she's goin' to where she belongs
don't tell me she's just a car
slip sliding along
my stomach
we make a stop at chez denny
i'm all filled up

feeling sick again
going to someplace where she belongs
don't tell me she's just a car
rolling down the road
the red light starts to shine
i slow it down
can't push too hard
because she might complain
you know where that will leave me tomorrow
don't tell me she's just a car
there is where she'll stay

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No size that small

what do you want
i can't believe i'm guessing
it seems like something's out of place
i picture myself a happy man
and the picture don't contain your face
ride the manic roller coaster
watch you rise, watch you fall
who in the hell designed this ride
there ain't no size this small

i feel the world spinning beneath my feet
e can feel the sunlight pulling me in
i can't feel you
just so you know
ain't no size that small
i hear the people on the street
loud and clear like the voices in my head
i can't hear you
just so you know
ain't no size that small.

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She's a part of me

every sunday
my little girl and me
we take a ride
just get up and go
four blood shot eyes
coasting down the road
we look like trees
on a windy day
we stagger drunk and home we sway,
to and fro
she's a part of me,
that's why we fight
as long as time is free
and we got a place to hide

we like to sleep in
we keep a low profile
saying peoples' names
and all the things they don't know
we stagger drunk and home we sway,
to and fro
she's a part of me,
that's why we fight
everybody says so,
they keep low
she's a part of me,
that's why we fight
she's a part of me
everybody says so

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Cradle

when i'm by myself
here alone
crystal clear
fresh water falls
hush and dive
got a little cradlefor my brain
a magic pill to kill the pain
keep things nice and slow
my shoulders sag can't stand up straight
i need a crutch to bear my weight
i need some time to heal
burried deep down

all the sour seeds i've sewn
now i weep
now i see
 how they've grown
as gardens grow
in long straight rows
as high as my head
thick roots below
every time it rains
it leaves a stain
so green so naive.

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Time by the dime

you're wide open
and i'm not interested
my mind wanders
i could be home
i can't believe it this is awful
i've got better things to do with my time
the day drags

the radio plays
same old songs
over and over
it's my time i can be home
my time
my time
my time by the dime.

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