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to Mars
Countdown initiation sequence the course is set all systems functioning in check all preparations have been met brain function at full engagement body locked in vigilance awaiting contact with a destination far inside of me sling shot across the sky a million light years to the other side reality's a distant hazy dream exiting the atmosphere of my mind body and chemistry my body separates itself from me approaching our destination heart and mind have reached ascension no response to signal sent we are unable to respond to the remaining threat crews incapacitated vital signs have clearly stated something's gone wrong with the ship collision course is imminent slingshot across the sky a million light years to the other side no one could have imagined anything like this ascending to another state can't stop and think or hesitate the reality of the situation has reached control.
I put my faith in the absence of something better if it doesn’t fit then its out of reach for me I'm a tightly wound mess neatly perched inside my own distress and you talk of freedom that means nothing to me and then you say how we ever gonna know if there’s something better is the only way to know ourselves to go too far I spend my days in a fear one day a wind will blow me away the only thing that keeps me here are these strings of mine that hold me down I watch the rise and fall of a thousand days it means nothing to me cause I’ve been promised redemption for a life time wasted in these golden fields so far so good so many promises swinging in the wind directions something that I can’t control creation eludes me its all just waiting time here in this field nothing but a scarecrow waiting for the world to tear me down
Here I can hold ‘em off for a while at least till I think of a way to make them see what I gotta show and to make them feel what I already know now pour the gas all over me light a match say a prayer and set me free turn your cameras on this burning boy I’ll be the life of an image you can’t destroy to see me here is to pass me by and to watch me live is to watch me die your conscience ignored your panic spread you’re whimper in the wind that no one said you crucify what you fear hold up to the light make it shine the desperation in my eyes is no dim reflection I won’t disguise but you never listened too afraid to give now I’m giving up on you to save face and deny you’ve lost your chance for a better way assassinate the threat immortalize the corpse write a book about the show and sell it to the source riddle me this and I’ll share your world around hang me on your wall and I’ll bring your hurt down
I paint myself a window in this world of your conception where it all comes down to you knew if you conceived it you knew I would believe it you knew that you would paint me into your world of blue you call it something to say you call it nothing to lose you call it anything but the truth suffocation in words your isolation disturbs I can hear your voice as it echoes on so bury over and over the songs you sing inside my head I don’t wanna lose what you left inside of me cause it’s all I own of you the red disguises secrets lies and the blue belongs to you alone the gold is time wasted in lines of indecision dragging onward so bury over and over the light in you that won’t stay dead I don’t wanna lose what you left inside of me cause it’s something real pulling me under I hear the warm hum of your voice washing over me a blue light melody of sound shines across my back and now its pulling me down pulling me under to where hide yourself alone gagged and tied to the weight of ourselves underwater well I won’t forget this loss the shame of regret turn out the lights and sit in darkness while I try to make it through silence there’s a monster growing strong conspire to bring me down its all I own of you
I’m preaching life I’m preaching thought cause I see it all around me as it struggles to unfold on a world born afraid I don’t need science no reason to calculate what’s here inside no answers won no questions asked will chase this feeling away I know about hate I’ve been in love and I’ve seen everyone around me close their eyes and turn to stone I’ve seen hope in disguise well I’m not trying to save your soul don’t wanna show direction don’t wanna take control I’ve been a lie I’ve told a lie but I'm trying to get it better each day I try life shot in the vein pumped in the heart awaking my soul knocked down kicked in the face shown the easy path is the hardest way down I’ve drawn to one conclusion that no one really understands anything we’re all grinding gears don’t know which way is up once the soul is dead the mind ain’t far away on the steps of my mind one thousand thoughts decline away
Got a feeling you were alone and on the run with your suitcase filled with razorblades and turpentine sad eyes of a scarlet glazed in promises made too divine to be real a runaway too shiftless to know what is wrong don’t make it right and sometimes I wonder if I knew you could I change you or would you be the same to me right now your reason to live became a reason to die and now you’re gone I think about you in black in white faded news paint still life memory of a broken body in a cheap perfume disguise well I just wanna know you found some peace before you left this place well it’s alright to be afraid of what your eyes can’t hide with both hands tied did you sink yourself did you cheat yourself how did you stray so far to end up here to know yourself is to destroy yourself and what you are you could not hide a clue is all I have to understand sound and bled instant fame in red now you’re in the spotlight again a different tale with a darker twist but for sure you knew that you would always be the star no lost innocence because there never was just you and the world no fairy tale could ever end like this it’s just another bad luck tale all used up and on the run from you
A warm dallas breeze floats naked through the air as a million hungry faces watch the king and his parade on show for the world to see prime time america nineteen sixty three and you were by his side I still remember pictures that look on your face the king had been forsaken and his country died in three seconds that would last an eternity O Jackie-O I wonder what you could be thinking now your mixed up little head has been left alone in a world so cold just a foot note in history book full of lies you such a good girl keep smiling make ‘em happy all is well in the land of make believe as soon as the bullet left the chamber on that calm november day you knew the world would never be the same the killer in us all just victims of ourselves looking for the perfect death trigger happy patriots running from ourselves you knew it would never be the same again o Jackie-O I wonder what your thinking now you’ve been left here all on your own in this land a world of make believe you get back what was taken from you and go moving on
One more time then I’ll know one more lie then I’ll go away pour another drink and I’ll ease myself into the comforts of your philosophy try to understand your friend in need and I’m here to make it easier you and I are one in the same we’re built alike in so many ways you can’t understand and you won’t accept your secrets are all safely kept here inside we’re so lost I can be the one to find you everything that you deserve no request will ever go unheard you’re better off without me now but without me here you're just better off alone just wait and see you’re just like me conversation’s getting stale a penny for your thoughts one small betrayal does no man know what he’s good for does no man want what he’s asked for it takes our design I’ve spent a lifetime waiting for the chance to chase these devils away but they always come smiling when you need ‘em the most so I’ll end this night alone again with nothing to offer and nothing to give conversations spoken in vein alone so go away it’s easier if I stay so go away it’s easier this way |
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